Suggested soundtrack: Years ago I verbalised the mental need for something to sweep you away from all your troubles. In dark moments when I lost faith in God, in people and in myself, the desire for an emerging hero took form in the only way I…
Category: Me time
Growing Up – or the Freedom of not Giving a Shit
Suggested soundtrack: Somewhere I read that happiness’ name is “it’s not my problem”. It’s a cynical truth and I guess it is the last piece of childhood that dies: the belief that we matter, the hope we can alter the course of history,…
Stranger Danger
I always say that there is something liberating with the conversations with complete strangers. The people who think they know you best often take little interest in you or how you might have developed since you saw them last, already knowing…
The phantom of the Operation
Trying to fall asleep on my night flight from Munich to Bangkok, I find myself lost in the thoughts that often return to me in moments when the body is at rest but the mind steadily fights on. Life lately…
The bubble
Suggested soundtrack: Out of the blue happiness was defined as singing along together to Wagon Wheel, to take a bath, to watch someone make carbonara, and to hold someone’s hand without worry of notice. Radagast came for a visit. What…
Made in Hollywood
Suggested Soundtrack: (Translation: It will never be over for me) —- [Spoiler alert for the whole genre of RomCom’s] — They say that one never truly appreciate what one has, until it is taken away. Back in Germany for a…
The stillness
Suggested soundtrack: Today I changed the wallpaper of my phone. Behind the icons of the few apps I regularly use and the multitude of apps I no longer remember when I used last, is the torso of a spectacular looking…
Cautiously optimistic
Suggested soundtrack: Today I woke up after dreams of transition. In my sleep I was circling my room, paintings taken down from the walls, curtains removed, the space stripped from personality. The dream echoed the feelings that encompass my time…
Who are you?
Suggested Soundtrack: Yesterday was my birthday. A few weeks (months?) ago I started pulling this joke that for every year now, I would turn younger, not older, making me now 29. To be honest, I really don’t care about my…
Death Row Relationships (short version)
Suggested Soundtrack: Once in a while I do some “window”-shopping at IKEA’s online shop. Not having purchased any furniture (except a mattress) in… actually, I don’t think I ever bought any substantial furniture at all.. it is a rather pointless…